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those three words. are said too much. they're not enough. no one ever said that love was gonna be easy. gotta take the ups and downs. the in-betweens. i was all by myself for the longest time. cuz i want just one love to be enough. and remain in my heart till i die. i hear your name in certain circles. and it always makes me smile. i spent my time just thinkin about you. and its almost driving me wild. you touched my heart. you touched my soul. i know you well. i know your smell. i've been addicted to you. and love is blind and that I knew when, my heart was blinded by you. well everything was easy then. so sweet and innocent. but your demons and your angels reappeared. every time I think of you I always catch my breath. i'm still standing here and your miles away. and the hurt from the heart it would not subside. saying I love you. is not the words I want to hear from you. i just want to hold you. well they say that love is in the air. but never is it clear. how to pull it close and make it stay. you got my head spinning. i don't know where to go from here. cos I'm slipping away like the sand to the tide. you don't know how desperate I've become. and It looks like I'm loosing this fight. you can't break my spirit. it's my dreams you take. but do you know that when you go, i fall apart. leavin' all the traces of the man you thought you'd be. leavin' me with no place left to go from here. and there's a storm that's raging through my frozen heart tonight. it’s a wonder my heart still hears and beats and feels. don't kiss and hug me and then try to run. i don't want just a memory. give me forever. i'm tired of hiding behind these lying eyes. i'm tired of this smile that even I don't recognize. but is there someplace far away. someplace where all is clear. easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear. if you looked in my eyes would you see what's inside. would you swear that you'll always be mine? was it you that kept me wondering through this life? when you know that I was always on your side. and there's a message that I'm sendin' out. like a telegraph to you or something. honey, stop this heart ache all alone. and as you move on, remember me. remember us and all we used to be. goodbye my lover. you have been the one for me + amry @ 3:53 PM | 0 comments
haha! so it is finally over and done with! well i know almost everyone has been celebrating and rejoicing in the name of freedom quite a few days ago.. but sadly i only got to savour it yesterday! and gosh, the extra two days was really agonizing! it feels like you're done, but just a tiny weeny bit unfinished yet. that kind of frustration, ya know? drives you crazy. but what da heck, it's history =) but one thing of ending ur spm later than everyone else is, you don't get to celebrate and scream at the top of your lungs with the rest of the crowd when it is over. i believed literally everyone headed straight to the malls after bio paper. and while other people busy taking pictures as it is their last day as a high school student..sadly when it comes to my turn, there ain't much celebration going. in fact, i don't think there is any, for me. all i did was head home, then head to summit (with parents, mind you) to watch happy feet, then head straight home. kinda sad huh? don't exactly know why... but it seems that most of the time, when i'm 'supposed' to be happy, i am not. like when pmr was over and done with, i realised there wasn't much joy in me either. heck, last year i even stayed at home during new year! (partially cuz i was sick) but well you know, they say there's always time for joy and time for cheer. guess it doesn't applies to me. or maybe, i had other thoughts in mind. bigger worries, more complicated problems. yes, much suckier than spm itself. but don't get me wrong. i am looking forward to what's coming. christmas, catching up with friends, partying (i wish), new year, college, NS (yea yea -.- ) .... oh yea, someone is turning 18 soon too *winks* ah. i feel so old. seriously, time flies. one moment ago we were 'innocent' young childish geeks who just step into the world of hoo-haa --> high school. and now, we're leaving it for a bigger hoo-haa, well you know, college. and i guess we can roughly guess how much more complicated things would be when we're finally in the corporate world. ironically as you ascend to a higher hierachi, there will be more fights, more back-stabbing, sacarscm thrown everywhere, and of course, more political. ah well. it is still a long way to go. hope my life is long enough to experience it all (according to palm reading, there is something wrong with my life line, haha! ) anyway, today i fianlly got to meet up with my friends, and of course someone dear to me. it was supposed to be siew ying's farewell. at first i really thought she was migrating, but thank god she isn't! =D anyhow, a bunch of us met up in Loganhouse, Taipan for lunch. as you know food is kinda pricey there and i wanna save money for xmas and hong kong as well, so i decided to order fish n chips, and i shared it with carolyn. while others the usual lamb, steak, you know la and some ordered a few fresh oysters too.. and oh yeah, escargote! not so sure about the spelling, but it is snail la =D and before you start thinking it is all yucky and start imagining of how a snail looks like, it is NOTHING like those snails you see in your garden okay! these are french snails, if i'm not mistaken. and it actually taste quite good ;p ah well, i'm up for whacky food. talking bout whacky food, kia vin and ryan decided to do the usual tradition whenever they dine at a restaurant. they'll mix everything they can get their hands on in a cup, dilute it with water and dare someone to drink it. and this time they managed to raise the stake by giving money to whoever who does. so when the price was around 20-25 i was thinking, well, what da heck i can buy reload with it. so i requested for 30 and ji yung and bhakti topped it up. and so the money was on the desk, 3 red 10 ringgit notes. i was holding the cup, but everyone was like holding their camera and their handphone right at face waiting to take a shot at it. so i couldnt stop laughing. but yea, i did it anyway. the whole glass of it. drinking it wasn't that difficult, but after that you start feeling naucious haha! but oh well, i got my money ;) curious of what they put inside? this was the recipe: tobasco sauce sweetened chili sauce salt pepper some green seasoning (still don't know what is it) few packets of sugar few packets of creamer ketchup coffee tea a splash of lemon juice that's all they could remember la. don't what else is inside it. now i know why is taste so sweet and salty and a lil spicy. kinda weird, but it is meant to be weird la. lol. and yeah, my stomach is fine, thank you =) and no, i did not have diarrhea, yet. hehe =) ah well, it was all fun. the food is okay. but the company, superb! gotta really catch up with as many people as i can, before we really had to part our own ways. and yea, christmas is here! have i ever mentioned how i love christmas season? it never fails to bring a smile on my face, and i hope it is the same for this year. i really need to lighten up, after everything. sigh. and no, this year i WILL NOT be sick and i WILL NOT stay at home. haha! + amry @ 12:17 AM | 0 comments |
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