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betrayed? back-stabbed? confused..
as i logged on into friendster this afternoon, i noticed the alert in friendster indicated i got a new messages in my inbox, and the sender is from David..so i thought it was eu jin at first..until i clicked it and saw it is actually from cw, another david.. haha..i nearly wanted to rub my eyes to check is it really from him? well you see, i haven't been hearing from him for like, months...since last year if i'm not mistaken..i got to know him as the my friend's boyfriend...and yea we talked alot back then cuz i was like the middleman whenever he and my friend fought...then the time comes when i could no longer see him online anymore...his status was always offline...it is pretty unusual u see for he is one of the online addicts...so i tried to sms him, message him through friendster and all...but still no reply from him..i tried asking his gf to see what when wrong..... as weeks goes by, i began to suspect that he actually blocked me....back then, i always wondered, did i said something wrong? or did something bad unintentionally? as months goes by, i started to give up...well if he wishes not to speak to me no more, let it be...no point persisting when the other refuses to tell you why, or even telling straight in the face that he hates me...he just left me clueless...sigh when i read the contents of the message i received earlier, i was shocked and speechless..he told me he was sorry that he actually blocked me ( not surprising at all )...but what caught my eye was the reason he blocked me during that time... he claimed that my friend ( currently his ex-gf) actually forced him to block me...she suspected there's something between me and him...as i read, my mind started to finish all the little jigsaw puzzles i had in me all this while together...and i finally understood why she seemed so angry at me back then...sigh..she could've just told me you know...i would have back off right away......... for now, i'm wondering why do people always think i'm the kind of person who will steal your boyfriend away? argh...i guess all this while i've portrayed myself badly....countless times people misunderstood my personality, my character, my attitude...they even claimed that i'm a slut, a bitch, oh whatever...but i always believe that these people say so because they DO NOT know me at all...judging a book by its cover is never enough...so i don't care...but her....i thought she WAS a friend....i guess when it comes to your very own boyfriend, you'll become extra protective as u start to become suspicious of the girls that mingles around your boyfriend....well i guess i'm partly to be blame also, since i was close to that guy also.... but don't take it wrong, i never stepped across the border between friendship and relationship....i strongly believed that you shall not do upon others, what you don't want others to do upon you....i would never dare to dream that my friend, or even worst my best friend, would have an 'affair' with my boyfriend...i always prayed that i would never have to choose between both of them...plus, i have faith in my friends that they will never do such things to me...vice versa... sigh, why can't people just trust me? maybe i'm really destined to be the lil fox... lol ^^ + amry @ 6:15 PM |
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